today 1/11/11 wrote up again the second post. nice huh the date today. many of people love this significant numbers. but for me is enough to remind me my mistake that i've done last year. about 1 year i have been clouding by ruth. 2/11/2010 it's a black day, sadness, regret, stupid action, not matured, blaming, and all those negative feelings was surround me. it's was an accident. actually i can classified that as my stupid action and i lose control to handling my car until it crashed the tree neared my college i study. the road surface in wet conditioned. and my car was speeding until 120 km/h at the long corner and in suddenly the car was damm understeer. i failed to control the car and i just shocked my body can't do any move. the only thing i can do is watched every moments until i realized the car was in bad condition. i take a long time for revive my self and my spiritual. in my mind i just bunch of useless persons. i just made my family worried and problems. but i thanks lot to ALLAH s.w.t because give me an opportunity to breathe and give me another life. i build up back my self-confident and thanks too my family my friends give me support. i believe everybody have made mistakes. so do i. i will ensure no more for second time of this bad story. all those thing happens have their own reasons. and i hope i will matured than the day before. until today, my car was stack at the heck. it's was financial problems due to higher cost to repair it. i accept it as my fate as well. what the most important is my life, machine is second priority. i will take this as my punishment for my mistake nor my lectured too. tomorrow is complete for my anniversary of sadness- azrians